I really believe that I can have everything I want, patience, in good time, the right time, planned out, or right now with no resources to sustain its beauty. Getting to that happy place is the answer if you answered your question with another question....why? about 4 or 5 times in succession. I was in the zone a couple weeks ago at Hard Summer, a concert. a concert. I was in the midst of different sounds. Skin splitting sensitivity seperated bacteria from skin and slowed down what was going on in the world. The world according to me simply stated was being the man for that night. But so was everybody else, and nobody at the bar would get into a fight. Fighting was not in anybody's (thatrolledobviosly) conciousness.
I guess everybody wants to feel like your in a Jacuzzi but really the appeal lasts when your on the inside lookin out. Looking into it it requires adequate levels of chlorine and a ph balance to ensure the acid doesn’t eat you alive. 500 gallons of water couldn’t be heated on a stove so you object to waiting. It feels good to be inside but there are certain responsibilities to enjoy that warm fuzzyness. Take exstacy and you forget those responsibilities. My Self induction into this wonderland can be likened to being inside of a Jacuzzi. Your Clothes stay on your whim, and you are not bounded by the limitations of water. You are surrounded by flounders and you swim through the liquid air . The beat bangs with a certain huss and you follow its orders. You move and shake. Instead of demands you see requests. Instead of fights you see people with a lot of manners. If it wasn’t easy enough to make friends with people looking in your direction, I saw friendships being made looking in the same direction. A dopamine overload allowed the speed of light dictate its own path.
A light show consisted of 10 fingers in your face all with different colored lights at the end, you follow with your pupils and obey their sudden movements. Myself and Molly extended our hands in an easy agreement. I am intrigued by this and as I submit my innocence along with my belt keys, cell phone, and my wallet, I will make sure it never comes back because I can now relate to so much more of the world. It didn’t last forever because I came back from this lust to a life I already prescribed as lustful. It didn’t last forever, we still gotta do things for ourselves. Maybe for a split second it lasted forever, but there is something in that pill that makes you not want to look at your wristwatch.
As far as the city goes, the tickets cost about 70 dollars and there are enough people to fill an arena. The DJ’s are up and coming and earn a lot of money from a genre of music bolstered by the underground unspoken economy of narcotics. The drug alliance will never see this legalized, but the city of los angeles will never get suspicious about how many ravers have the Nokia 8830 cell phone turned off. That’s a handshake because it profits from these events but pretends to be indifferent of the situation. It stimulates the economy……for the better.
I wore my Penguins and they are completely fucked. I used to be against these type of things but I do whats possible to see the world with an open mind and heart. I will ask for Gods forgiveness but I try to make up for it in other ways. Will I jump in the Jacuzzi again? Probably but its definitely at the cost of moving toward the Devil. Hell Hath no Fury and If this Love story took me in the right places it would be upward. I know some of the best times ive had were in front of this keyboard, walking out of a classroom, or head bent, hands to knees sweat dripping exhasperation. I aspire for things and the most important word in the sentence is Aspire. I aspire to aspire. My challenge is to get back to that euphoria without sacrificing anything or stepping on your feet. I think one can be that happy, but it definetly requires a family, or other people to make you happy. I don’t think you can feel that on your own, and its good teamwork to alternate who puts chorine into the hottub.
I mean cocaine has been around for centuries so it barely got prevalent in my life. 22 years old and im trying to never be a senior citizen, I observe deterioration in the homeless stressed with humiliation. With nobody to cry on, these quick fix genius’ are sold the last array in exchange for tangible, measurable sacrifices. Time frame is a big part of this topic as we discuss time limits of these substances. Im trying to find that Love I know is there when I sleep and wake up and keep. I got to know molly and she told me she diddn’t stay too far away. I could jump in that Jacuzzi when I wanted but the only way to keep me at a safe distance is if you drained out the water. When you take the drug you could be a star. A Rockstar in your own mind. The only mind that matters right? I guess all good things come to an End, and I have a problem with that.
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