Mama I aint done yet.

Unemployed winner?

I'm writing thank you letters to everybody I interacted with this summer at Parker. Everybody that I believe will remember my name whether they felt my contribution or was somebody i said hi to when taking bathroom breaks. I learned enough about accounting and too much about being middle aged. I learned that people dont change too much after 21 and it would be hard to not talk about the wrong things in the cube.


Ill definetly miss the cube.




I love that I can look back at past posts about what i thought about this. Last year I was watching this from the couch. A small step for my Mankind, I cant explain how blessed it was to be able to wave my badge to clock in. I was one of maybe 2 people that even clocked in.  Waking up at 630 am was no big deal, starting the day at 5p.m. was life as i now know it. I start school on monday, i do everything i was going to do this summer tommorow. I dont remember the last time i walked into the classroom without a job because it was just too long ago. I look to the future hopeful and willing to stay with the company had they let me extend my capacity of the intern. I enter into the 5th year of my higher education with both eyes looking ready to look at the books. Landing a Part time job is a long shot but its in my heart. My mind says take out a loan and lie to women about having a job. I dont know, im kinda confused on what to do. I just know that I intend to exhaust my every energy, as God intended that I do. I explore other avenues such as learning spanish, or salsa dancing, but i just feel in love with hand shaking and small talk. I promise Im good at talking about the weather and I can get deeper into current events. I love hearing about your family and your justified excuses about how you missed zumba last night. I miss my job already and Im starting to feel empty. Im temporarily back to the drawing board, and im fueled by the same desire of independence from my father. Let me remind me that its not where i go, but how i get there. Moreover I could accomplish my goals and feel empty because I accepted whats next to a bribe. I hope it doesnt happen, but thats the futuristic battle i dream about that will end my world. I sound so John Conner but I believe myself and God will get to the truth.  It was the greatest summer ever, i want to thank my degree and a decision I made just over a year ago.

Thanks Mom, I got this.