Height Advantage

 You aint gotta get drunk to have fun. We all know that and I sure dont need to pound that into my head. This one is about self control and blissful ignorance. The Height advantage lies in my "ability" to stay grounded. I am very knowledgable about that Cali Kush. I reference the narcotic drug trade when seeing my friends ReUp, for pleasure or profit that escapes balance sheets and eludes California Tax. I sit 4th on the Lshaped couch that fix 7 people with 2 other participants leaving 1 who wishes he could partake. I am the ONLY ONE who doesn't smoke. I cant perceive any advantages in those numbers but ill roll the dice keeping hesitation in my heart.  We watch our favorite show on the DVR, Entourage and I observe both a nicely rolled blunt and bong being passed different directions as if 2 waves crashed into each other.  I dont shoot but over the years I passed blunts like Allen Iverson, but now I see clearly and I Chauncy Billups it to my left. Ive catapulted past peer pressure and come up with every excuse to still look cool. I lied about when I "quit" and understand that if i got into it again, I would probably enjoy it. While I dont give a shit about the laws of the land, and how our parents used to do it, something about it just diddnt vibe with me.

My life is a movie, but this Hollywood demeanor I put up is far from an Act. You love movies cuz it keeps you on edge but you knew he was going to make it. I'm not ready (at all) to say i made shit, but i know I barely had the credentials to sit in front of the people interviewing me for the internship. After all those crazy nights I had, they still chose me to sit in front of them and chat. I drank my fair share, but passing the blunt would probably be what gave me the Height Advantage to just barely make it into that chair. It gets alot more important for me, which I intend to cover in my own terms. My Director, My Producer all told me not to get high again and didn't tell me why. He also told me to handle spirits in moderation and said the sex scenes are just fillers. The next movie could take place in the High Heavens and thats if i agree.

I observed some of my friends giving up this habit for a short period of time in order to be more attentive and focused and motivated and upon hearing this I learned alot about why im not into it. The more I smoke it the less attentive and focused and motivated you can become, which pretty much defines life for me. I kicked and screamed to get here. I yearned for this townhouse, I currently Glipse at Independence. I barely did it, and as the camera rolls I intend to take everyday by my directors thumbs up and thumbs down. I'm far from perfect and to be honest as a believer I am guilty until proven innocent. I lost my innocence 3 weeks ago and I just might be one of those people that gets saved by a DNA breakthrough. I enjoy sinning and hey that rhymes with #winning. I have a certain lust for life and im working on it, whatever the f@ck that means.  My actions may seem elusive but to me they are so obvious. If quitting temporarily it makes you better temporarily, where are your plans at? Moderation, Grain of salt, fuck it.

I feel like a Law Student in a courtroom. The first rule in Law School is raise your hand if you know the answer and dont let those questions pass you because eventually your going to get called. I created an allegory from this in the form of sacrifices. I'll try to sacrifice getting High in order to gain a Height advantage. I dont know many of the other questions being administered, but ill sacrifice worldly pleasures that and concentrate on the pros. I shouldn't have pre-marital sex, but i respond, sounding angelic, that its not pre-marital sex if you dont have any intentions of getting married.  I'll give up eating red meat, and tell you its for health reasons. Its not written in the bible, but its just a simple sacrifice telling God that I am willing to expense a common worldly pleasure because this New Years Party is going to be one for the recordbooks and hopefully not the hospital.  I started the Victory Lap today, I study numbers which consist of 9 digits and a 0, but im starting to fall madly in love with constructing sentances out of 25 letters and a z. I feel like I thrive in certain situations involving Human interaction wheather or not you like to fornicate. Truth Be Tole, I want to be there for my clients like a good great excellent exceptional Attorney, it's not in me to Judge.  I'm not saying ill never do it,  but as we speak of Highs and Height I've grown comfortably admist ignorance, and honestly at this point, i can roll you a pretty formidable "j".


I dont get High, Life keep me at a decent Height.

-Lupe Fiasco