I know it has been a while since I been myself. I was gone and if I had to give a good excuse of why I havent been here, it would be the story of my (Descriptive Adjective) Life. I write like once a month, and to me, its a crime to write about the past using sober memory. I plan to finish my last blog, but my problem is I wait for a time where my innermost world is at peace with the outer atmosphere with a smooth surface conducted through either a beam or a sad face. I should treat this like how they market Starbucks Coffee to the overproductive independent american woman; Just shut out the world and enjoy the expresso. I'd rather foster this earth, and I wanted to see how deep rooted my love for it can get. Sometimes in this country, especially through media exposure, I feel as though I can do anything I want, yet on paper it seems as though a dream. Capitalism is out here to destroy human conciousness, turning just under 500,000 of us into blind hedonists looking for pleasure and fast food. Am I just feeding this assembly line, or am I a free thinker? I try to avoid asking myself such hard questions and just appreciate what I have. I went to India to remind myself that there is more out there. There are genuine smiles out there. There are people who cant read living day by day, in their own language, eating their own food that they grew, and loving the children who consume just enough. In fact, just enough is all they were given in terms of a conscience. Essentially it is out of their consciousness to over consume anything. When Food, Water, and Education come at an asking price, you think sacrifice.
I face a lot of pressure to conform and be like my peers. My indefinite response is to be myself. I truely appreciate knowledge. I want to keep learning, and learn different things, most primitiveness through experience and human interaction. My goal as I have said before is to better understand my world by meeting everybody in it. The Bible says that to look at a woman with Lust is as bad as Adultery. Women today come to conclusions at eye contact, although I am forever just a student trying to understand the world through interaction. I think an education in Law would help me understand the world and unmask those in need. Another side of me just wants the challenge of it. The LSAT is a small price to pay for the next 4 months and 2 days along with the costs of a class and my time to see if this is really for me. Though the test will test me on not what I was taught in school, I remark in appreciation that I will learn something. Moreover I will go about this in a sense that there is no pressure to score at a certain percentage.
Love always shines.
I face a lot of pressure to conform and be like my peers. My indefinite response is to be myself. I truely appreciate knowledge. I want to keep learning, and learn different things, most primitiveness through experience and human interaction. My goal as I have said before is to better understand my world by meeting everybody in it. The Bible says that to look at a woman with Lust is as bad as Adultery. Women today come to conclusions at eye contact, although I am forever just a student trying to understand the world through interaction. I think an education in Law would help me understand the world and unmask those in need. Another side of me just wants the challenge of it. The LSAT is a small price to pay for the next 4 months and 2 days along with the costs of a class and my time to see if this is really for me. Though the test will test me on not what I was taught in school, I remark in appreciation that I will learn something. Moreover I will go about this in a sense that there is no pressure to score at a certain percentage.
Love always shines.
