Contemplate. part 1.

 Hey Sweetheart,


Halo 3 came out September 25th 2007. So you made the decision to split up with me around September 20th or 21st of the same year. While it doesnt bother my day to day interactions, and I had Halo 3 to refocus my life around,  I will say it is a great time to write a blog to kind off, sort off, step back and contemplate, on my side, sorta what September 20th or 21st . When I first heard that you wanted to move along, it struck me as a surprise. Till that point in time, from when I first met you I thought that we were going to the stars, holding hands, as one, on a magic carpet. We had Disneyland  passports, that had plenty of time left on them. It was bad for me, but I know you still use your passport. I don't mind revisiting the entire situation because on the real, I'm very comfortable with this situation.  if we had to compare mindsets in 2007 and to this day 2012, I am very interested to kind of see where we were, where we thought we were going to be, and what ended up happening. What would be even more interesting than the last sentence would be to compare it with what could have happened, versus what actually did happen. Now I don't want to make a lengthy blog fantasizing about you when it's not necessary or even real. It's just very interesting to see one brain and a transition over a five-year period. This half a decade was spent in classrooms, reading textbooks, working multiple jobs, going back to Disneyland, watching the rise and fall of businesses in the family, and myself in the mirror, usually after a workout. In this five-year period I started a blog, in which I will only write, when I feel like I have something real to say. I like to write when I feel like I can grow mentally from the outset of writing a blog. I feel really good after I write a blog and getting things out of my head and onto the spread sheet or word processor helps clear out the toxicity in my brain.  I was very involved in school, I held leadership positions, I volunteered, and I picked up some internships.I graduated from school.  I speak negatively about education. But I got the job. I've had other girl friends. I'm feeling really good right now.  can't thank you enough.  you build this. You helped me, realize. You help me realize that we shouldn't have been together. But being together, causing that spark, and leaving was exactly what I needed in order to plant the seed which is on its way to grow into a giant stock.
  while we will never get back together never. Never. I will continue to do what I say I was going to do, and not to what I said I will not do. Five years ago, I could've been hopeless. I gave up so many senior year activities in order to please you. I gave up so much time my friend even though they forewarned me that I shouldn't be spending so much of my not my time but my mental resources on trying to please you. Artists could draw you, you have physical beauty, almost unmatched. But you treated me like an idiot.  which I was.







What brought it up and why even speak on this five-year sort of anniversary. Is the song by Wale a featuring Rihanna, entitled contemplate.  This is not the first time I am referencing Wale,  because I really respect him as a musician and as an artist and he really got into my head the first time I had heard the song and especially the first part of the song in which he describes the situation involved in a relationship. This relationship seems like it's one-sided.

YOU AINT BOUT THAT LifE

Random Shit That I Think about

• This Election has nothing to do with Mitt Romney. He is stupid.
• People Tweeting Pictures/Instagraming pictures before their death.
• A protester burning the american flag died from fumes from the flame. Great job.
• Money just Changed Everything.
• I want to see New York City
• I am going to cut my fast early tommorow morning to go to lunch with the boss and crew.
• I love basketball, but im afraid to step on the court and not live up to my potential.
• I want to be about that LifE. 
• I want my parents to be healthy and really impress me the next time that I see them.  I love those people.

Party In the USA

Democratic Party in the USA.

I really never liked History Class, But I did admire General, Abraham Lincoln. I have heard good things, in history class, with one ear pressed against my history book, my eyes, if even open examining undergarments hanging out of girls midriffs. I hated to learn about this stuff. It was useless, and there was a much larger future to focus on. History class was just memorization to me. This date corresponded to this, and this came after that. Action A led to Action B, and the gaps were usually filled in through logic you can scrape in siatuations. Those situations came to life one fine day.

I went to Washington D.C. I chilled at the same restaurants where a little over 50 years ago, Civil rights leaders came to plot. I saw the same Speech, the most quoted speech in all of human history, The Gettysberg Address, given by President Lincoln in 1863 during the battle of Gettysberg, in a Great War our people were fighting, AGAINST OURSELVES. A Nation Divided! This man brought us back togther and delivered the Emancipation Procalamation, which in turn outlawed Slavery. Basically this man got it done.  I saw his memorial and was my attention was held.

The Palace that Enshrines President Lincoln Forever was "Honestly" the highlight of my weekend. the statue was shockingly lifelike and expression was immortal.  His commitment to the American People was before his time. To think that we allowed slavery says awful things, but to say they were wrong, at their time in relativity, is proabably ignorant in itself. We have grown as a culture, but are we still racist? Do my Indian parents want me to marry an Indian, when in fact they went against norms and fell in love beyond regions.  Lincoln watches over you and checks you for citizenship. Not your papers but ponders what you have to contribute to the very dream kept alive by his Gettysberg Address.

 The City of Washington D.C. seemed very progressive in its own respects. Rough neighborhoods standing adjacent and evidently to buildings housing the most powerful decision makers on the planet. The home of a Military power not to be seen. The city in between the states of Maryland and Virginia. "No Taxation without Representation" Screams each licence plate as the citizens, (my friends) who pay taxes but do not get votes in Congress. Home of Kevin Durant, Wale, and Dave Chappelle, I got to see what the real D.C. was, and what gets upstaged in everybodys mind to the great monuments to enshrine the leaders of this great nation.

A subway system can get you anywhere and at anytime. Bars that close at 4, mean we leave after midnight, and we sleep till noon.  I got hammered for the first time in a while. Steep rent reminded me of other citys of similar livability. Rain, Thunder, and Traffic defined my commute back to Charlotte in which the DNC was underway.


 The Drama with getting a community credential was Drama. Rain haunted the first night of the DNC, and  I watehed Michelle Obama reiterate the American Dream from the couch. The next night. To my surprise. the power of loose ties, through my good friend, handed me a ticket to see Bill Clinton Address the DNC. I saw him explain politics in what may have been a hard knock speach told to a dr. suess rhythm. I thourougly enjoyed it and because of that i spent time listining to great speaches.

They cancelled the Nomination at Bank Of America Stadium due to the possibility of rains and thunder, but as the day came closer, it was a horrible decision that pissed off my friends who worked hard, and volunteered for the reward of seeing the President Accept the Nomination. Bill Clinton Stole the show.

 Community Credential.

Cali!! 609 votes!

 Inaugurations, Speaches, Moments in Time. The Reflection to a distant Black and White. My American Dreams grow lush and srawl details.