Life After Neil

July 20, 1969
 

It suddenly struck me that that tiny pea, pretty and blue, was the Earth. I put up my thumb and shut one eye, and my thumb blotted out the planet Earth. I didn't feel like a giant. I felt very, very small.




 

Mondane

I got around to Student Loan Exit Counciling. I really want to get this monkey off my back, because today, when i woke up in the morning and brushed my teeth. took a shower and used scorching hot water to help shave the hair off my chin, something special happened. I felt like an adult. I learned about a grace period in which i am in to start thinking about how im going to attack my $13, 086 of debt that hangs over my head. I paid like 3 minimum (late) payments of my credit cards today, only cuz i will feel alot better next month. Work has been a great learning expirience. I got a haircut, and made a friend that may turn into a lifelong friendship. I started reading david allen again, and im starting to feel like a full time worker as today im going to limit the writing, and forego a few pictures in order to sleep by 10pm. I have a little help from advil pm, but i really need to go to the gym tommorow, as i failed this morning. I dont know about Intermittent fasting as of tommorow, its really hard to concentrate at work as it is, and i dont want to be thinking about food all morning. Ill have to play that by the ear, or the stomach, but as of now, i took the first step into paying my student loans, and i know its not that much, but to be able to pay off what those 13, 086 have represented in time, would mean the world to me. I asked for this. and it was presented to me. Today was the first monday post grad, and its kinda scary to think I could do this for the next 45 years and have a nice hefty retirement check. I don't like that idea, so im thinking of a way to never get old, or never have to retire. Its kinda crazy, but why would you want to just "work" for the next 45 years. I think they are the most fruitful period of time in my life. I gotta make the most out of this. Imagine a 45 year goal. Lets think about that for a second.


Tuesday. Bring it.

The Real World Day 1

My Whole life Packed in 3 Carry-on bags. I had fun in Los Angeles international Airport getting these two way under 50 pounds each except of force the carry-on bag. It was nuts same by my parents. I had a moment with my little brothers before I left the house in Lake Forest at 4 AM in the morning. And the drive to LAX with my father was an interesting drive because I was very inspired to do well and it really hit me. When I got on the plane things became very real to me. Now I'm on the East Coast of United States of America. I had my first day today at Parker Hannifin. The facility in Charlotte North Carolina is about 10 times smaller in the facility in Irvine California. I got to meet more people, and through the doctrine of Southern hospitality they really lived up to the hype. Everybody was very nice.

 I got a rental car from Avis. It was the Jeep grand Cherokee. It drives very well. My hotel room is very nice everything is very nice in fact. I can't complain about anything at all. I'm very excited to do well in the company. I found a gymnasium that is fairly close to work and and eventually I want to be able to go to the gym beforehand. But does the breakfast buffet in the morning that is preventing me from even thinking about going out and working out. I have been eating very unhealthy the last two days.  For breakfast at some added enchilada with eggs. I think I should go to bed because it is about one something in the morning and I said I wasn't tomorrow 8 am.  God bless those affected in the tragedy that happened yesterday. It was a sad sad day today at the office.  I like this new life and I know this can be over in less than six months I have big decisions to make that that time.

 Today is the first day of the rest of my life.

Carolina On My Mind.

Flight Leaves in Four Hours.

 It takes about an hour to get to the airport from Lake Forest. About an hour. That leaves me with about two hours two getting ready and write this blog. in my head, there is a lots of different feelings going on. I will miss all my friends, my family, my car, my way of life, my enemies, My 2  beautiful dogs, and because of baggage regulations at Los Angeles international Airport, I will miss many of my shoes my clothes and other equipment I would love to taking.  When I get on that flight, everything is uncertain from their. I don't know any of the people that were on the flight, and moreover I don't know anybody in the city of Charlotte. Except for one HR lady. Who call me told me about my living situation. This presents a challenge to me. Challenge accepted.

"A person’s success in life can usually be measured by the number of uncomfortable conversations he or she is willing to have."

 It is incredible, that in just two days, I will wake up in a bad I've never slept in before, and will have to call that my home. I'll get into a car of never driven before, and commutes to a job I've never worked for.  today is that day, everybody has these days, some unexpected some expected in my case I expected today It stands maybe two years ago. The fact that it's so close, compels me to come to this blog and tell you how feeling. At the California home front, I have started a wager with my father, in order for him to lose weight. I have waged about $1000 by the end of this year that he will not lose about 25 to 30 pounds. I really love my father, and I want to see him win. My youngest brother, is desperate to have his clothing line, flight crew, to blow up. I can make that happen slowly and I'm not even in the picture I'm about 3000 miles away, on the other side of the country. I trust that he will invest my earnings and create a huge following for the brand. My second youngest brother is still trying to find himself as he enters  the fourth year  at UCLA. I took the accounting route at Cal State Fullerton, and now I have a license plate–that states that I am a an alumni.  One of the first things I plan to do is put the license plate cover on top of my license plate in North Carolina. I think that makes for a great picture to upload onto the Internet after i put a filter on it. the I had a bonfire last night and a lot of my great friends, came, and had a great time. I think they love me and I love them back so much. I went to into  in and out burger tonight, and it tasted great just like it always does. 

I did a pretty good job of seeing everything that California had to offer, in these last few weeks, except i had no money. Seeing Santa Monica kinda sealed the deal that my days in California will be my best days, and it will come again. I just need to test out the friendly skies, and the great American Dream. First stop Charlotte, Its a party in the USA. I had all the time, but no money. Kinda nuts that a check came inside today and it changed my world.

 There is one topic that I would like to delve into, it would be, the responsibilities of the college graduate. I'm single, I just finished college, I just moved back into my parents house temporarily, I am looking around for ways to be anchored into California and I can't seem to find that. In about 2 1/2 hours unwittingly leading to the airport and is incredible that I have the sense of freedom. No anchors. I can work there I can move somewhere else always making the same money. And the great part is I can always move back. But what is kind of interesting is I'm not 100% sure that I would want to back. I love California I don't like my parents house. 

I love my dogs.

I will miss the PDP in Downtown Fullerton. That was a period of time in my life.

I  I spent a lot of time thinking about what my status with me on Facebook. Like it was an important thing to think about. Like I would have something so epic that it would be one of the best status updates ever posted. But I think what I'm going to do is not do that. I think coming into it out of it, it is not worth it. I have to stay humble, stay focused, and show that I have breaks. I'll probably do some variation of the quote you only live once. 

Its about 3Am now.  I got Carolina on my Mind.

NoDaysOff.

My Type of Party

Meeting people, different people, in many different situations. I think one of the most important things that happened to me in the last five years was getting to understand people for who they are and, and seeing through their eyes. A great learning experience for me was joining the brotherhood, or fraternity, as they call it. The fraternity that I rushed in the fall of 2008 was SigEp . I had a wonderful experience with the fraternity, the best part was being able to decipher my way out of hard situations. Every week we would quick be in a very tightknit schedule we would need for meetings on Sunday nights. We would have basketball practice once use these we would have homework the next night together we would do good deeds for the community and of course we would party on Thursday nights. I met about 27 guys on one night, first name last name favorite hobby. Today I don't really talk to any of them anymore. I hate to downplay or make this seems any less important but I do want really want to recognize that it was a very good experience that helped change the way that I will interact with everybody in the future. When you bring a bunch of guys from different origins into one place you immediately recognize differences. There were some guys that I played basketball with, some that I only cut hair, some that were interested in doing homework together, and of course there were some that were cockbloxks. It was easy to see that there were some guys that you will only see on Thursday nights, that have no value to the fraternity and to the team. Some that I only saw on Thursday nights where there was a party atmosphere and a lack of sobriety. And it always went down the same way, hey what's up, cheers. I think I know how to see people and their motivations and if they have an agenda. I met some friends who no matter what were always busy, and never really wanted to hang out. They found that I had a lot of girls coming to my party and without an invitation they show up. It's I want to discuss a certain neutrality I had some people, but I respect everybody and I was always a good host. I've known Indian international students, who don't consume alcohol bring a $40 bottle of vodka to my party, just because it was the right respectable thing to do. And I also know people who I consider my very very close friends, always coming to the party late without contribution or chipping me money.I have paid more than my share in having these parties come to life.. Throwing a party I released its began to understand the stresses and the sort of problems that occur mentally when throwing it. You want to invite this person but and you don't want their friends. It's not that I don't like your friends, but will my friends get along with your friends?. I developed a sort of rationale when it comes to your friends or a friend's friend. Just let's say somebody is neutral that means I don't know you nobody knows you, and you have no sort of contribution to the party as an you can come in and you can creep on girls, and drink alcahol. You take that same person, and when he walks in the door and everybody sees him he now has a bottle alcohol in his hands or 820 pack of beers. He also comes in with two hot girls. It makes a big difference. This person went from negative to positive. It must be stressful being a party promoter, especially one with a lot of friends that want to party. I wish I can get a lot of people with me on the same page but it is think it's just something that is too much to ask for. The party last Saturday went very well, I understand there were a lot of people that said they were combatant.com a lot of people that said they were going to help me out but did not and the many other problems that occur with parties. I did not want to set it up as a going away effort. But the few people that did come did contribute, and had a good time, we will always member the pad. It's called on. College was a lot of fun for me. I can't believe it ended two days ago. I wonder what fraternity will do for me in the future. Where will the connection resume. And speaking of resume where will the value, in terms of it resuming on my resume. The dynamics of partying and having a good time, is a study of its own. What really bothers me, is in one of my classes I sat next to a devout Muslim. This guy had better grades than me, he was very outgoing, and he really badly wanted the job. I said I helped set him up with an interview with an employer. What really is sad, is that I knew he would not fit in in the workplace. It's really sad, because after they get past past that you have a good GPA, in an interview setting they are now trying to find out if this candidate is one that we can take out to happy hour and entertained. To these very religious, who do not consume alcohol, it is outrageous. It is unfair. But, we have to understand we are only dealing with human beings. Why would I study partying inhumane dynamics,? Because, it may be very helpful in my future dealings with the employer. Many deals get done on the golf course. Workplace relationships are something of study…and I intend to get to know this better.

On to the next one

10 semesters 5 summer sessions 1 intersessions. I retook a class from fall 2007 in spring 2011. I went ahead and pregamed the last final. It feels a little surreal to be starting the next level In 12 days. Thanks to you and everybody this step by step process went down as it should. I had so much fun and I feel as  perplexed as I feel prepared to move. The weather is hot and the summer is feeling very California like this year.