I finished 4 years of years of college coursework. Exactly one year ago I knew i was going to Graduate. Graduate. I was 20 years old and I was almost ready to visually fixate on a graduation date. My younger brother had some big news (litteraly) as he is ready to become a UCLA Bruin. It's wonderful, but no surprises or luck there. He deserved it. I am so happy for him, but really am I?
I mean the post my Father put up on Facebook got more "Likes" than anything else he has ever put up. My mom is so proud. I mean we all are. But what are his acceptance in terms effects on my pathway. Do I have to get into UCLA as well to measure up to the younger one? In the eyes of my parents, it really doesn't bother me, because my goals will taken by the shape of demands only I can put upon myself. I know I said i want to become a certified accountant and also study law. LAW. 'But do you really wanna know why. Because when i read the Sparknotes to Harper Lee's "To Kill a Mockingbird" I fell into admiration with the Noble Lawyer Atticus Finch. I will never change that reason, but on the surface, when I spin the totem, and im convinced that im awake lets say im trying to help those people who I am sposed to look down upon. But Atticus, lowkey is a father figure to me, and that book deserves a genuine read. I guess you can say, though fictional, A Strong Willed Role-Model who fought with his heart. An Attorney who fought for Tom Robinson. A Literary Hero who saw the Good in people. Who hated inequality.
Let me get back to Undergrad. Where was I?
There is so many things and so many thoughts and so many storys i want to turn into allegories about the last 8 Semesters. I interviewed with Associated Students for the Vice-President of Finance, and figured out the only way for me to have been selected was to prematurely quit my Summer Internship at Parker Hannifin. No. Its sad that it came down to that, as there are so many trainings meetings and events that are mandatory, but i have to pursue this internship with an as open mind and wallet. 40 hours a week and more if i would so choose. Im happy that I even have options like this, based on the opportunities given to me and taken from others. Can I really be happy about that? I guess i should be due to the unlimited aspects of Happiness. On the other side i sense hopelessness from those that sit next to me. When I left from my first day at an office job, I got on the elevator and somebody was going down. I asked him how he was doing ( Too much excitement on that day) He said good, then asked me. I just smiled and he rhetorically answered "Livin the Dream".
What is education? Nearly 4 years ago I could have written a book on what Education was, and what i wanted it to be. Today I would take that book and burn it so it will never be salvaged. I think of education as something different today. As much as i think its a right, i believe it belongs in the hands and minds that deserve it. Those genuinely thirsty for knowledge. Those who want to learn and grow. 20/20 hindsight and this keyboard would have me becoming an English Major. I love Psychology, but whose hiring? I would always Enjoy Nutrition and Kiniesiology, but what happens in 20 years? Im at the mercy of the 2 line indication of Supply and Demand who said i should study Accounting. I truely love it. Definetly. Why is it Taking 5 years? CPA requirements and im studying Finance as well. Im not a big fan of Finance outside of its good working knowledge. It's the study of Greed. Dont Say 5th year or Super Senior. Its the Victory Lap.
I do feel like I grew up over the past year. Its no use to take it from me though. I wouldnt reccommend you listin to what i say. I completed an Internship at a small international Taxation CPA firm. On the 8th floor with a view of the Matterhorn Mountain and Angel's Stadium. I guess the view from up was great, cuz you can look down. Convieniently you can look down on people as well. It's kinda scaring me. I start another Internship on a larger scale. But i get to meet more people who will give me ideas i have yet taught about. Aerospace. Engineers who will help build my SpaceShip so I do like The Neils before me.
man its late, Why am i still up?
"The one thing that doesn't abide by majority rule is a person's conscience."
- Atticus Finch
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