Hey Sweetheart,
Halo 3 came out September 25th 2007. So you made the decision to split up with me around September 20th or 21st of the same year. While it doesnt bother my day to day interactions, and I had Halo 3 to refocus my life around, I will say it is a great time to write a blog to kind off, sort off, step back and contemplate, on my side, sorta what September 20th or 21st . When I first heard that you wanted to move along, it struck me as a surprise. Till that point in time, from when I first met you I thought that we were going to the stars, holding hands, as one, on a magic carpet. We had Disneyland passports, that had plenty of time left on them. It was bad for me, but I know you still use your passport. I don't mind revisiting the entire situation because on the real, I'm very comfortable with this situation. if we had to compare mindsets in 2007 and to this day 2012, I am very interested to kind of see where we were, where we thought we were going to be, and what ended up happening. What would be even more interesting than the last sentence would be to compare it with what could have happened, versus what actually did happen. Now I don't want to make a lengthy blog fantasizing about you when it's not necessary or even real. It's just very interesting to see one brain and a transition over a five-year period. This half a decade was spent in classrooms, reading textbooks, working multiple jobs, going back to Disneyland, watching the rise and fall of businesses in the family, and myself in the mirror, usually after a workout. In this five-year period I started a blog, in which I will only write, when I feel like I have something real to say. I like to write when I feel like I can grow mentally from the outset of writing a blog. I feel really good after I write a blog and getting things out of my head and onto the spread sheet or word processor helps clear out the toxicity in my brain. I was very involved in school, I held leadership positions, I volunteered, and I picked up some internships.I graduated from school. I speak negatively about education. But I got the job. I've had other girl friends. I'm feeling really good right now. can't thank you enough. you build this. You helped me, realize. You help me realize that we shouldn't have been together. But being together, causing that spark, and leaving was exactly what I needed in order to plant the seed which is on its way to grow into a giant stock.
while we will never get back together never. Never. I will continue to do what I say I was going to do, and not to what I said I will not do. Five years ago, I could've been hopeless. I gave up so many senior year activities in order to please you. I gave up so much time my friend even though they forewarned me that I shouldn't be spending so much of my not my time but my mental resources on trying to please you. Artists could draw you, you have physical beauty, almost unmatched. But you treated me like an idiot. which I was.
What brought it up and why even speak on this five-year sort of anniversary. Is the song by Wale a featuring Rihanna, entitled contemplate. This is not the first time I am referencing Wale, because I really respect him as a musician and as an artist and he really got into my head the first time I had heard the song and especially the first part of the song in which he describes the situation involved in a relationship. This relationship seems like it's one-sided.
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