Sleep on it.

Thats why God give you night.

Last night i was faced with the toughest "keep your cool" and smile situation in my 1 year something tenure track at the Tangy Tomato.  Why/How did i get pushed so far last night? Why was i so enraged at that point, its not like me. I think its the meeting point of causation between it being a wednesday night, the team was short staffed due to a catering, and my close coming resignation from the restaurant. It all hit me at once and the scrawny 20 something year old who rubbed me the wrong way at the wrong time exposed almost everything i try to take out of my picture frame. God you are so great to challenge me on the eve of Thanksgiving.

I was going to write this last night. as the rage only continues when you get into the car and reflect on your 30 min drive home from work. It only gets more creative. i was writing lines in my head. Being so negative i diddnt want to take it to my pride and joy. My blog.  Not this thanksgiving. We give thanks. Thankful yes i am. For what? starting with the most basic and prevalent.

1. I'm Thankful for the day off. To spend with Mom Rishi and Jet. 
2. Thanks Dad and Jai for holding down the restaurant. For which its success makes for a better life for our family. A better life for Dad and Mom namely. Im so glad my mom doesn't have to work though she chooses to. 
3. Thank you Jet. When i look into your eyes, i see the reflection of my power to love. The greatest ability i have was generated through your unconditional loving. You never say anything but you communicate to me very accurately(that your hungry) lol. I really don't think i would be the same without you, you have shaped me more than most humans. 
4. To the Beautiful Young Wordsmith who brought me into blogging. When i first saw your blog and witnessed your innate creativity it was like you popped open the wine bottle i bundle these thoughts and Ideas. Now im trying to keep up with the word play in order to win "The Competition".
5. To my youngest brother. You Never Gave Up. When i would have given up. You diddnt. Damn thank you for opening up my eyes. I live vicariously now, instead of creating my dream years ago, i let the pen down. I threw in the towel but you diddnt. Thank you for showing me something i can apply anywhere in life.
6. Jai, the thinker. I know you are going to make it because you have a very rhythmic approach and we can all relate to it. Your working very dearly, but i want you to keep it moving. Out of us 3 you are the most sensory. Im thankful for you and will do whatevers necesary for your success.
7. To my Older brother Kobe. The craft. Its in the Craft. You have shaped my mind so much. I know we are illusioned to glorify heroes in our culture, but i see it differently. You glorify the pain involved in Championships, not the Champaigne afterwards. For you, you love the journey. and the slow realization of that became the single greatest motivation as i move through life. I rep the lakers, but i rep your outlook the most. THE MOST. Thank You.
8. Dad. This is going to be a weird one. Its crazy how your more passionate about me cutting hair than going to a law school. I guess its what you see in me and how i got to cutting hair. its defeinetly a story to tell, but your story is greater. You took what you loved the most and created something out of it. You are no Doctor or Engineer, but an Artist. And i think it shows with your peers where your personality stands out. ill probably write a whole nother blog of appreciation, but for now im thanking you for all your support, 
9. Mother I love you. Im so proud of you. Thank you for being the most Beautiful Woman in the world.
10. California State University. Thank you for being my gateway. For the professionals to push me. The education i need. The Degree with 2 concentrations. The reminder that i have to hustle to compete with students who have more money and go to more prestigeous universities. I see it. Thank you for putting my foot in the door.  "Formal education will get you a job but self education will get you rich"
11. Parker Haniffin Aerospace. Thank you for the Job Offer. Even though i start in June. I will treat every day at your corporation like my interview day. Unlike the jobs in the past, i will now work for a CEO and Shareholders.

That felt much better. but i just want to move through this world and shake as many hands as i can. I want my energy to resonate through others. I want to take people  with me. I think thats what i have going for me.

 Ok i gotta go study but its Quote time

"Conquer your enemies with love" -Gandhi